Self love

Demon of fear i see in dark, is it there or just passed?  I can see him watching me with his white glowing eyes,  Smiling at me and waiting for me to pass by, I can't hear him nor i can understand him, But i can still feel the fear of him inside my heart. I can feel him standing next to me, staring the emptiness of my heart,  Waiting for the right time, to barge Taller and powerful then me in dark,  When i ask him what he want's, he gulps the light and ask my soul to be at his lasts I can feel the warmness in his breath,  Breaking my body in cold with sweat,  I feel the dulness and impuissant of my soul, More i stare at him more he grows, Increases my breath with every second it go, He touches my cheeks and i feels apart, Nothing i could i do then runaway from dark, He tries to grab my ankle but i shake and runaway too far I feel light in the light.. Thinks,  Who is the demon in dark?  Will be answered in next part.. DeePika 👿 Follow...

            Pic : pinterest Today was the most anxious day for me in last 20 days... I felt it was my test for the practices i was doing from past 3 months to control my anxiety and  now i feel that i just passed from passing marks and that to be with the help of my close friend. 🤪 Since morning i was anxious because of the hot weather and weight but when i met my friend it calmed down but suddenly anxiety got accelerated in evening when it got dark and i was alone in room hiding behind the door. At that moment i got to remember one of the childhood memory where my grandma and paternal uncle hid me and my younger sister in a room to save us from our father's scolding. I dont remember what we did but i do remember that i came down to grandma and i asked her to save us from papa's scolding and she just hid us inside the room and asked us not to make any noise and be quite. Then my father came down angrily and asked her to give the room keys ...

This topic came into my mind when i met one of my aunt from extended family this rakhi. Since morning she was sharing her stories with other ladies of our family on how to lose weight,  how she lost weight and even  now its time everyone should lose weight and few inches from here and there. As she has lost 12 kg in two months. It should be inspiring not making other people target or conscious of their weight and flesh. This discussion raised few questions in my mind like,  Why weight loss and beauty is such a hot topic among ladies?? Why cant we be satisfied and accepted by people as we are or what we have?  And this further made me think that, families are the first and foremost one's who criticize us on the basis of our size, height, color, language since childhood. Then comes our friends teachers and colleagues. First, they build insecurities in our mind for our personality and physicality and then later in life they ask why you are like this? Why don't you ...